Beneath The waves

I'm drowning in a sea of turmoil, kaos, & corruption
Misunderstandings, false assumptions, & consumption
Of bad ideals, morals, ethics, & practices of self restraint
Faint hopes of ever removing my surroundings taint
I'm gasping for air, barely keeping my heads above
Da waves, swimming on the strength of a family's love
A mother's expectations & a mother's congradulations
A family's elation, during an a accomplishment occasion
But I'm constantly hit wit waves of fierce persuasion
Pushin' me under, the air in my lungs continously phasin'
Out, wit each dunk underneathe this furious sea
Thats hellbound with its intend of overtakin' me
But I swim back to the surface after every waves best
Shot, givin' all i got to not surcome to my eternal rest
Not to today, no way, no how, that day comes 60 years
From now, even I wanna buckle under this sea's sheer
Virousity, I muster up all my animousity & feriocity
To feul my rebel against this abiss turned monsterocity
It took me down once & I survived its worse of worse
But I do not think I will be able to survive its curse
A second time, first go round I was lucky but luck doesn't
Strike twice, I looked to christ back then but I wasn't
Ready, but I am steady inching towards the shore
More & more becoming stronger an firmly reassured
That I will survive, an touch the lives of many others
With an influence not strictly confined to my brothers
As I reach the shore my new resolve strips me of regretal
But I am still waist deep in this sea we call the ghetto

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