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Stare into my reflection on a picture frame, I realize I'm not who I used to be...

Picture Perfect

With this image in my hand, I'm eyeing my less than picture perfect stance
Taking in what I see, intently observing with more than a passing glance
Nostalgic thoughts invade my mind and not by mere chance
Thinking of the past thoughts of my advance; looking at my "then" self perception
Suddenly I begin to realize, the person I've become was not at all my intention…
Yet and still, I am who I am, and for that there's no possibility of prevention
Need I remember the facts?…in my head, deeds good and bad counteract
Like links in a chain, one after the other they react, but the movements can't retract
The strong will that I've lacked and selfish ways that I act..."is this really where I'm at?"
Harsh words of profanity, the change in me has others suspecting insanity
Losing humility and almost my very humanity, the cause is easily my vanity
As I've now come to see, my attitude resembled that of debris, I agree
Each statement I made was to be taken as "royal decree" and MY WAY should be a guarantee
But back then the innocence of youth was upon me; life itself hadn't yet tainted me…
Now I'm going through the motions, but not emotions in life and I've yet to truly achieve…
Looking back at "self" and tears are all I receive, it's hard to believe
Am I really even me?…but who else can I be but my shameful, doubting self?
The one who only cares about self…back then my life was about pleasing everyone else
Now it's the opposite extreme…temperature's rising, tears no longer hiding
Surprising are the emotions riding, the notion is more than surprising…
That my thoughts of this image are all I find to confide in