No offense taken champ, you're just reaching for understanding. That's how the mind makes sense of things - but that's good, because at least you're making sense of things!

And I really do feel happy. I even feel good just knowing that I have a rightfully deserved smile on my face and that people can feel the glow of happiness exuding from within which makes them feel happier. Which makes me feel happier! lol.

It's a strange experience to feel what this is like. Even your voice sounds different when you're at peace, so much thicker and fuller and breathy. So much more ressonant. Slower. At rest. And people can feel it. Good ideas come to you immediately and without you conciously thinking about it. The amount of time between your first step to something, and the result of that step feels like it was done and there for you to take when ever you were ready for it. Everything just flows, without any concious thought or effort.

Strange at first, but I love it, and it seems so un-natural to do something now without it. It's like the ultimate swiss army knife.

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