yeah, it was shitty..i had two older bros, and a younger sis, so i got kinda ripped off for attention

yeah, whenever i think about what it would've been like if i did too, can't help but to think if i'd be anywhere close to what i'm doing right now...its weird, because i sort of want it badly, but a little scared knowing what my situation would be.

kind of like knowing your future....you know what to prepare for, but will you make all the right decisions to lead you up until the point you saw

the ambiguity is numbing, haha

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