Why would god punish me? I'm the way I am because of how I was raised and how the world made me. If I don't believe christianity, it's because of that. That's like me teaching you how to play basketball, then getting mad if you miss a shot. If I find a universal reason to believe it I will. I'm not even trying to be over logical, because some things can't be explained. It could just be my history of betrayal. Either way, I just don't believe it all.