Sunday, March 19th 2006 (later on)

Main focus: getting close to understanding it all Still confused tho


____, a friend of mine, became my analyst
to the damage done, he can assist me, but he vanishes...

(Brownnumber18 signed off at 7:53:28 PM.)

The second I saw that, hella questions went off fast
He left without addressin' it, I'm stressed and I'm all crashed
my thought's false, I'm kneeling hurt, to the perfectionist
God'll bless me with the lake, but won't let me catch the fish
She's either feeding me patience or She's leaving me hangin'
Giving me peices of language, but won't teach me to say it
the funny thing is, I know for sure my feelings must be real
with all my shit, my question is "will __ love me still"
if after its said and finished,and my head edit's twisted...
and my spirit, progresses residency instead of visits
and I shed my skin and awaken different and changed
will she keep the interest, or wonder if its a phase......
she listens to jean grae, well "love song" has the attitude
that half the dudes will stab your back, and that they bad for you..
and what's sad is, that random fact is true..... I'm bad news
but I can't detach her from my life, we gettin married.. .we have too
no one else can try to be my wife, I never felt this high
with any other female, but hell, this could be my selfish side..
I need time to think, and I should try to see why it's me
that has so much trouble putting his mind at ease

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