Deepest Desire
The Moment
A windy day wit no sign of no one near my way
When I got a call from a girl that lived by my place
And all she said was come quick I maybe a horny bitch
So I went to the store and got me some condoms really quick
I call back the bitch to come back to my crib
Made the lights dim as soon as she came in
Clothes soon hittin the floor, all torned and ripped
Had her on her back, about to stick it in
Got the condom put it on, and then the moment really begins
All slippery, wet, body temperature climate risin quick
Felt so good, the movement of her grindin on it
Before the end she gave me head real quick
But in the moment I took off the rubber I had on my dick
Sensational tingle as I came in her quick and
That’s when the problems really had began
Few Years Later
Getting weak, struggling just to get up after a good night sleep
Barely eat, minds troubling, over the wondering and thinking so deep
Why do I suffer of fatigue, why I can’t get up after a night of sleep
Why do I have so many blisters, why is it I feel unhealthy, so weak
For weeks I felt the same, so I went to the doctor and all I can do is wait
An hour has passed in the clinic my turn to go so I got up and went in
Where the doctor was sittin he asked me was the problem I was sufferin
As I told him the things that was happening to me
What I heard I couldn’t believe, he said it must be an STD
As me myself was in shock of this, I decided still to take the test
Now 2 weeks I have to wait is just what he said
2 Weeks Later
2 weeks has passed, so I enter the clinic to ask for the test I had
So then the doctor went to check for it, the wait made me crazy and mad
Slowly it was handed to me…felt like time stopped as soon as it reach my hand
So all I can do is look and see what I have can relief or make me damned
As I open the folder all I saw in red was, letters that spelled out my destiny
And the red it read like this, proven positive for the STD called HIV
As I broke down in tears, screaming and yelling, walls breaking by my fist
The anger I have for that bitch that gave me this sickness
Now thinking: can’t be no lower, can’t see no higher
Cuz I can’t raise and conceive a child can’t have what was my “Deepest Desire”