i been getting closer and closer to the point where im suicidal...im not suicidal but i been consteplating it alot....i aint ready ta die but i dont wanna live...like i know if i die im giving up cuz i havent accomplished nuthin and wit how im living i cant do much ta accomplish shit and where im at is pretty much holding me back from what i wanna accomplish and i cant just leave...so there for im hopeless and i just wanna die but i aint ready untill i can really say i accomplished shit and my life is worth reflecting on not just by myself but by others