Then quit your job and see if God pays your bills with random blessings. It just doesn't work like that, you are getting money because you have a job.

If anything money is a curse... Think about it for a second. If Jesus was alive today, and he got $4500 dollars, what do you think he would do? I definitely DON'T think he would spend it on a plasma TV for his apartment, so he can have slightly crisper image quality while he watches a football game, while people are dying and suffering and in desperate need of love.

I am not telling you to give away the money or whatever, but stop kidding yourself. You are NOT selfless, you are selfish! That's just the way things are. Say sorry and move on, don't think "Oh, im special, God is blessing me because I give a little bit of my change away every pay check, I am a chosen child of God and God loves and cares for me more than other people so he gave me $4500 and blessed me." By doing that you're just being even more selfish and delusional.

God loves you as much as he loves that crack addict bum that lives in an alley and murdered some dude earlier in his life. He loves you as much as he loves Osama Bin Laden, as much as he loves Hitler, as much as he loves the white dudes that lynched blacks for no reason. If you consider $4500 a blessing, as in a repayment for something you've done, then you are a materialistic fool and you don't understand anything. Yeah, it's helpful, but you are "blessed" in so many other ways which you apparently don't care about as much as money. Basically everything is a blessing, so don't be ungrateful. If some dude punches you in the face and steals your $4500 then you should thank the lord because you are alive and got to feel a punch and theft in your lifetime. If you saw a leaf being blown by the wind, you should be so grateful that you would be happy to die right then and there because your life was fulfilled and you required nothing more.

If your whole family was killed in an earthquake or something, you can be sad, but you should be grateful and consider it a blessing as much as you have this money that you got.

You see what I'm saying? By being "more" thankful or whatever for this money it shows that you are biased towards "worldly" shit (as in the bible's meaning of worldly), which is exactly what you're not supposed to be. You could say you are thankful for the other stuff, but your actions say something different.

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