hey, im glad to hear that man! you're right in a lot of ways, "god" as you choose to call it is connected within and around you. but, it has no conciousness. it IS conciousness. the mass of concious thought it self IS "god", IS a creative energy. or destructive energy depending on how one chooses to allow it into their lives. it is simply energy, you chose to make it positve or negative.

but at the rate you're learning, it looks like you'll take the higher energy and allow your self to become something from it

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