I used to be like you, I was fucked up. Doing things I knew were wrong, not seeing school as important. I believed in myself though, I was determined, I was finally able to do well at school.

And you know where it got me? To exactly the same problems I was having before, only in a different form. Where was my promised happiness? There was never such a thing.

The sad truth is that nothing will ever get better in life, ever. If it does you aren't looking at it in the right way. It's hard for me to explain this, it's going to sound weird or something, but you have to give up completely on life to fully experience it. The only reason what you're doing is wrong is because you don't understand what you're doing.

Give up on success and there's no way you can't be successful. Just look at what you're doing, you obviously feel bad about it so wtf are you even doing? What kind of idiot sits there and goes "Yeah, I have a problem, is this a problem? I'm doing something wrong, oh no, its affecting my school and family! blah blah blah" Just get over it and really look into yourself, stop lying, you don't even know you're lying because it's you that's lying, but seriously stop kidding yourself.

If you see the truth about the matter, your desires will probably disappear. Anyway, everything I've said to you is useless because I can't express my point properly and you won't get what I mean. If you want a sure fire way to make your life better, look up the 10 buddhist precepts or the 10 commandments and follow them for a while. Once you understand, you can break them, but only when you understand.

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