^^nah i understand what u mean but i know what im doing. its just i cant help from giving into my temptations no matter how guilty i feel about it. thats why im doing this despite all the shit i know its affecting or whatever. lol if i sound like an idiot then i sound like an idiot. and im kinda in denial about it being a problem no matter how much i know its a problem, thats why i cant refrain from asking whether it is or not. im hoping i hear "no" and i already addressed the problem i cant lose the desire simply by addressing it

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