This is a deep subject, but I'ma share some thoughts.....


So many times I can count when I’ve been disappointed and hurt too.
Never there when I needed you, I’ma tell you why it’s true.
I’ve been looked down upon by you,
And never was told you were proud of me, man you have no clue.
Horrible figure to look for guidance.
No confidence by you, so I’ll show no more shy ness.
Why bother? My father was never there to show he cared.
Cold and empty, the darkness in me began to rise.
I’ve been told by many, the soul never really dies.
In the hour of my demise,
I choose when or if the hatred subsides.
Flashbacks, blackened out cataracts makes me forget I was on the attack.
Visions of pictures scattered amongst my brain.
It’s hard to hide thoughts when ya mind is clear like a window pane.
Might be hard to explain,
Outside the box, 4 walls don’t make the frame.
Didn’t take responsibility then, now your gonna take the blame.
Countless acts tower over my memories.
You’re a coward for never showing me the man I’m supposed to be.
But now I here standing before you chin held high.
Tears no longer streaming from my eyes.
Blood racing through my veins and all I wanna know is why?
How could you forget I even exist?
How could you walk away from your child and act like a bitch?
How could you never call, write or even visit?
I hope you know everything I will become is in spite of you.
Want you to know, along with me, even my kids won’t like you.
I’ll never be like you, but I do have the right to,
Tell you to fuck off cause I never wanna see you…

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