I am just worried, I question whether all you really need IS a relationship with God. Do you feel at peace most of the time, or do you still suffer and struggle for things in this world? A relationship with God is something that you already have, nothing you can do can improve or ruin your relationship, it's just there. YOU can't do anything, you are completely helpless. Realize that (I think you may have already) and you have an easy, fun life ahead of you.

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