You can call it whatever you want... Joy, happiness, pleasure... It still doesn't change that those are just vague pointing words that are referring to something that cannot be truly described or defined. Happiness could be defined as having all your needs fulfilled, and only experiencing things that you like and not things that you dislike. That isn't a proper description or definition, but it solidifies what to look for.

I figured that out when I was looking for happiness, because my search wasn't going anywhere. I questioned the world and discovered what I was meant to be looking for. How does that make me pessimistic? No way am I going to blindly follow some vague goal I set for myself I don't even know when, and try to succeed at that. Thinking and questioning is the most worthwhile thing I ever do.

You can't get that "happiness." It's impossible. You can get it for tiny periods of time, and then it disappears and you're off on the search again. It's because your situation, your feelings, your desires, your likes and dislikes, all of these things are constantly changing. You try to adapt to something that is constantly changing. It's fucking impossible. That's what I call wasting your life.

The method that I have used to attain happiness is to get rid of my desires and preferences. That was the only way I have found so far. Since when I have no desires, there is nothing that I want, and therefore all my desires are fulfilled and I feel happy/content. With no likes or dislikes, I can't develop desires, and everything that happens to me is just as it is without any preconceptions.

I don't have a worry in the world. I can play whatever games I want. Maybe sometimes I feel like playing the pessimism game... What's it to ya?

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