Wow, your personal philosophy is really striking.

Imagine that, a person who spends their life learning... It's so profound. As opposed to a person who spend their life trying not to learn... Wait, is there even anyone like that?

And also, why would you fear God if you believe in Jesus? If you believe in Jesus, you're already saved, there is a place reserved for you in paradise. Not the scariest thing in the world...

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