I see you. my mind is racing, sorting through thousands of words i have committed to memory, yearning to find the appropriate and perfect ones for this occasion.
Quicker than possible, i discard them one by one, realizing none capture the intensity of all i want to say- until finally I'm probing through nothing.
That same nothing is the empty air that turns into the lump in my throat as I try and swallow my failure. inhibiting me from speaking, i am forced to just watch, arms folded across my upper body, stopping my heart from jumping through my chest.
It's a volcanic eruption of emotion searing through my skin, burning to escape--only to take form as a smile. But a powerful smile. an intriguingly intense smile. I hope.
I cant stand still. My hips sway side to side as if they hear a song my ears ignore.
You're getting closer, and i want to just kiss you, and squeeze you until you think of nothing else but me. but- I settle with a nod of acknowledgement instead.
cuz i GOT to be suave.
Now, you're about 10 feet in front of me---10 feet too far.
In case you've come to take my hand and sweep me off my feet, i inconspicuosly brush my palms against the fabric of my shirt, to rid myself from all evidence of nervousness.
cuz i GOT to be suave
I know you can't hear my thoughts, but i think as if you can. i wish you could.
You're so close i can taste your scent lingering on my taste buds, and i gladly soak it up.
I bite my lower lip anxiously, goin through a mental checklist-
how do i look? are my clothes straight? no stray hairs?? check.
Is my breath fresh, and lips succulent? check. do i smell good, is this pose sexy enough? check.
am i STILL suave?? maybe....damn...
All this before hello.

this is real to me, i dont know bout yall...