I stare away, my eyes they fade, as i say 'this one last time'
This one last time, i rhyme, to myself, considering my health
I should stop and swear it off, cuz this can't be the hand i'm dealt
But it is, n life's just shit, i'm 21 and have almost a year old kid
Who's life is this? Its mine, i'd quit, but my daughter Alexis wont have it
But this one last time i just sip on it, i put my lips on it, it's my love
I drive miles to get it, n once i'm with it, it feels like an internal hug
'Let it go' she says, but i can't, i shrug isntead, knowing my feelings inside of my head
How can i let it go, i've tried before, this shit's a jealous whore, i'ma end up dead
N addiction, i sit flitching, with out it in my hand, i rage on the outside but inside i'm sad
Can't let it go, not even for one time, cuz one time's to many like Coke lines
N i'd say im fine, but we know when im' fronting, stuck in, my minds fucked n i'm seeing the signs
You see me, it'd please me to see another man go and get off it so easy
Wrappin my mind around poles like stripper legs, my minds racing for days like Stewart
But it sucks when you know you hurt, but you only hurt, because of the people YOU hurt.
This aint a math equation, because my actions, they aint adding up
Cuz even if i said, this is just one last time...i'd just tell myself to shut up

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