its diffrent form what i usually do, and please dont tell me to up the vocab , im not tring to be a dictonary im just tring to write how i feel.

im inhaling deep breaths to refresh my database//
feels like another strugle trapped in this paper chase//
my place is laced with ambitions to be the best//
but i have visions of my life with out flesh//
god bless my lost soul, as i travel threw time//
feels like i need a minute to relax and clear my mind//
let me rewind to the time when i wanted to die//
yelling to the heavens buts god just takes his time//
i had the nine to my head about the let the trigger go//
thought i was worthless until the light started shinng slow//
now i know, i was probabley just a test from god//
to see if i had the strenght to get where i belong//