As a child I really had less than others/

I mean I wanted to be like the rest growin up with their mothers/

A Father, two sisters and myself equals one fourths/

And if you ask me do I regret my life? Of course/

Who was there for me when I cried at night/

Shaking my nerves goin postal holdin my pillow tight/

Hell I taught myself how to read and write/

Then I sit back now and ask myself a question of reason/

Will my life be in remorse or will I have a change of season/

Through my life been experiencing cause and effect/

Been writing so much lately even my pen's upset/

It dont wanna write, my words gives you signs can you see the light?/

I'm expressing my emotions in a rhyming form/

And yes it's no lie on June 30th I was born/

7 pounds 7 ounces of awaiting attention/

But my parents dismissed me and put me in a life of detention/

My hearts sounding off like a instrument of percussion/

And why does god think I deserve this constant reprocussion/

You say my vocabulary is simple and plain/

Well I dont have to break it down for you, These tears are pain/

There is no sunshine within my feelings/

And why I pray to god in my room starin at the ceiling/

But these walls are all cavin in and I'm claustrophobic/

But I want you all to know that this is real and I wrote it/

I grew up without the get togethers, reunions/

It took me 11 years to achieve my first communion/

With God on my side I have power everlasting/

Like Muslims and Ramadahn Its pain I hope I'm fastin/

So some please take these tears from eyes/

Cause its not fair to first die or live a lie/

So someone in heaven give me my wings so I can fly/

Cause I gave up drinkin no drugs no gettin high/

I wont let the devil poison my body no more/

He once was leadin in my life till I changed the score/

1-1 in the final quarter/

Time for me to be clutch and put the game of life in order/

Oh I gotta watch out theres 3 seconds remaining/

But I feel the power of my lord and the devils power draining/

The little angel on my shoulder done kicked the demon's ass/

And I picked him off my shoulder and gave him his boardin pass/

Time to change my life and make over/

Cause I will never let the evil take over/

The clock ticks off the last second the game I save/

But the question remains in the end who's gonna visit my grave/

Heaven beside hell with you/

The Devil inside you, overwhelming you/

So get out of ya state of purgatory/

And when you die let your spirit free and feel the lords glory/

This isnt about religion its about humanity/

Cause if you're not righteous you face insanity/

Dont ever look at yourself twice cause its vanity/

Look at yourself twice and see the man in me/

Cause my reflection in time is what mirrors me/

Whether I make it or not is what god planned to be/

Life is destiny and failure is time/

Thats why you hide your pain in life with a "I'm jus fine"/

Thats when I can tell its just another line/

Cause the brain your movement is connected to your spine/

See we are not just cells that were created/

We are souls in a body mass by God emanicipated/

Set free to do his missions on God's green earth/

So you tell me the real reason behind human birth/

An Egg Cell gets occupied by the sperm/

Now you tell me how a cell can learn to form a child/

The concept of silence is jus a lie behind a smile/

So I take you from my past this rhyme marks the seventh/

And hopefully one day St Joseph opens the gates of heaven/

Jus listen to what I say and take it as it is/

Cause this is my perception of what life really is/

My experiences is from only twenty years/

So how many more years are worth of my tears/

Will I succeed of fail in misery

And if you dont agree with this rhyme dont mind you dissin to me

But I thank you for your time and respect to listen to me

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