And so once again

Don't begin to doubt the way i feel
Because these feelings are real
But the fickleness in my mind holds my heart at a stand-still
I dont want to face the fact
That maybe i do want you back
And its hard to react, when in actuality i dont really know how to act
OR
just to leave it alone
Face the world on my own
But 4 the past 2 years you have been my only home -- My shelter, my rib, my heart, my kids
So i just cant walk away
from all the memories and things we done did
Cuz deep down i know i cant let you go
And this pen explains the ways
Just how my body is in this craze
And thru it all, to have you here next to me
I'd walk ETERNITY - plus the rest of my days
Words will never profess the adoration i hold 4 you
And thru and thru i keep wondering ' what am i to do?'
Naive or for real, my mind plays with my heart
The lonely nights foreshadow that the pain has yet to start
And tho i grip my pillow and pull the covers near
In reality im alone cuz i need you here
But 2morrow will be fine - new girls, new sights?
Escape the lonliness that rips me apart and goes bump in the night

I need you sincerely - truely and deeply
Without you i'm empty - please baby forgive me

And so i rest my head on this icy pillow for now
I want to tell you i miss you...but i dont know how...