Can't Count onFAITH

Im surrounded with a glowing gray of night-where-I-stand,
The stars look as if someone put them right-there-by-hand,
And though the chilled breeze caused my glands to expand,
as the goosebumps spanned up my arms in a strand,
as the moon shone so bright, its light seemed to expand,
over my glitterring eyes, and every-earth its sight scanned,
I stand, here all alone, all dressed up like you told me,
The air coldly, I wondered how the night would unfold-see,
But I started to want to run home, cry and rip off my clothes,
As I waited, and waited, till rain dripped off my nose..
and slipped down to my toes, yet still i had faith,
that you would show up and fix the feeling on my face.
That you'd keep your promise, so I didnt give-up,
and ten minutes later, i saw you drive up.
And i got in the car, you're joking..smoking, and yet,
I was happy you came, though still soaking-wet....

If it hadnt been for my faith, I would have already surrendered,
But you said it'd be great, a real night to remember...
A house party?! This is nothing I haven't seen before,
guys and whores behind doors, drinking galore...
Im disappointed, But still I'll try to make the best,
I get up to search for you, a mis-take like the rest..
I saw a girl, and then you, par-take in her breast..
you two kiss and of course shove a stake-in-my-chest..
Fighting back tears, i turn to leave and realized
we're deep in the city, I dont know any of these guys..
I try to hide..what to do? I just cant decide..
Ill have to try to find a ride, I cant go back inside..
No surprise, that all of the cars passed me by,
2 o' clock in the morning, im then aprroched by this guy
And im instantly relieved.. now this nice man will help-me,
but he gripped me and dragged me, all the way while he felt-me
And the whole time I asked God a question, a riddle,
Why me? As a blade ripped the flesh-of my-middle..
Then i felt God had heard me, for a sudden intruder,
Broke the silence of this rape,and his face looked familiar..
I thought, Thank You Lord for sending someone to stop this,
But then to my horror, he only joined in the pro-cess..
And i closed my eyes, cried, could only lay there and take it-
as both of these sinners covered my body like a blanket..
Then i recognized my rapist, as my body he invades
He was well known in high school...because he has AIDS.
I prayed for my angel but, had none of the sort-and,
cuz of that my life was significantly short-ened.
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I was a good girl, I believed, but now every-ounce is hate..
For i learned the hard way, you just cant count-on-faith.