Aight here we go...

I Tried so hard... and gone so far..... but in the end..... it doesnt even matter

lol

GL fam

The blade of envy reflects hidden promise inside
The dissappointmens collide with the times that I've tried
I pride myself with depression, question ways of religion
Non-existant in faith, success was merely forbidden
A witting tool of a sin, within the death of a hope
Sure I could change, but feelings the same.... me and God are remote
I've coped with struggle enough, a rough life at a glance
But the past will change...lived a small life to plot the largest of plans
Advanced to stronger degrees, my knees clinsed with blood
Yet I struggled for ease, my counscious clinched my gut
But I tolerate pain, straining to move I grabbed the dream from the star
Fell from beauty in awe, then reflected the sight to see my hideous scars
Eyes darting around, I wait for the time that Heaven's silent asleep
Discreet deception to cheat, a man's rapture to reap as diobolical flees
I penetrated success, no room for remorse, with jealousy in my chest
The promise smiled with a jest, but hate consumed his resort until my envy digest
His breathe fell warm on my face, I traced his moments in life to mock his success
The man's parents were dead, received his money from will, and did as Bibles suggest
Now Im living with gold, jewells, and plenty of riches, existance obsessed
But no matter the day, in the end I know, Im merely walking with death