This is dedicated to my Father who died in 1994...
Pre-Written Verse I did after he died...
All my love and thoughts go out to you dad....

I Once has this conversation with God / Under a foggy light of misery explaining im a fraud / Looking for answers to justify the anguish / But stranger dialects couldn’t decipher my language / On a pedestal of guilt holding a blade over my wrist / As I kissed my watch and left time cause times a bitch / So fed up with events and sorrowed ties / I found a place of pain when I looked in my mothers eyes / Inside dying with each release of stressed breath / I was pushed over the edge on the night of my Fathers death / See. . . People sympathized with me and sheltered me in rain / But didn’t notice my damp eyes were tears and cries of pain / Somebody explain to me. . . How you can build a bond with another / Live as if you were born blood brothers / Then God rips you from each other / Smothered everyday in the anticipation you’ll be back soon / Walking halls were I see faint flickers of you / These rooms my memories harbor are empty and filled with dark / Through stupid arguments and hateful words. . .i never knew we’d be apart / So in the tares my heart suffered, and lonely in the end / From me to you I love you with a thousand thoughts I send / I cant imagine your last day, and loosing what you left / And the horror of being taken away by putting a gun to yo head / I pray you found peace, and still hold a glimpse of me / Your sons older and taken care of, that’s a promise ill always keep / If you need anything im still here if you can show me a path to find you / Just know I miss you everyday, and only a step behind you / Save a spot for me and well meet again one day / Until then I deal with loss, until I make it your way. . .