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Each day goes by as I take stepz livin wit love, liberty, an’ life
Inflicted woundz I lay upon myself when hit witta knife
I met tha gyrl of my inner most fantasies, nawta worry in sight
Only way I could think of losin her was to bury her as an old wife
With one chance to find, I set out an found a girl, one of a kind
She was everything I ever wanted, wha else could I ax for?
Worries, I stack more thinking bout lead in which I tend to pack pores
I lost my gyrl of 4 yearz an’ she was one always there for me
Simple discrepancies we had didn’t commit wear an’ tear on me
Seemed lyke she was tha only one who seemed to care bout me
“Us”, it seemed together, we was caught in the net
Who woulda thought true love could be found on the Internet
Spring break, it was then in which I set out to visit her
I neva been so happy, neva then did I think her feelinz were stirred
They wasn’t but on may 28 I found out they was w/o a doubt
Emotional drought, what’z this about when our love was neva in doubt
Tony, an acquaintance, a long term friend went visit her juss hang out
I came home from meetin a basketball idol in which meetin was in doubt
Excited I was, I had a great time at a basketball game wit evalastin memories
Turns out I was in for a long nyght of emotional blowz constantly hittin me
“He kissed me” she said, wha was I to do or think, simply too shocked to blink
A sickly sweet smell of devastation, i begin to kiss tha mist
i wonda if everything would be aight if i juss slit my wristz
Endin my life, datz how I felt when it’z all bad cardz in which I’m bein delt
Be my world I axed an’she was, but it hurtz he kissed her knowin she’z my gyrl
timez wasted as i endure horrific mind phases, who’d thought love hadda bad taste to it
Thynkin bout tha sinful scriptures, tearz emerge as i smell her scent on picturez
Might as well serve seven shotz pointed at me as I lay on this emotional crucifix
I go around appearin happy but really I’m on tha edge of losin it
My hand shakin as I hold this pen to tha paper, let this beast free an’ do mia final favor
Juss rip me apart frum tha start cuz appearently I got everything but a heart
I’m 18, “kid knowz nuttin bout love, hence tha age”, I feel like I’ma burst in a rage
Conscious crazed in this emotional stage, take grenadez an’ ricochet’em off my rib cage
Dude couldn’t get his own gyrl, I see why he attempted to take mine
I didn’t understand though, if she didn’t want me, shouldn’t she juss gimme a sign?
I dunno wha I’ma do, only way I’d look happy If I listened to a soothing song
Losin you, watchin my casket roll away iz tha only way i'm "movin on"
Unique tha way I cast linez, neva take your love for granted as this iz my sadest rhyme
how does it feel to have tha person who repaired your heart, rip it out one last time..