If only...i had gone according to plan wud i be typing this now?
the mind wonders how, i inadvertently escaped from the underground
6 feet down...the incident severed our bonds of friendship
a marble scribed with dead scripts their only mention
it all began with a simple sentence....never thought words meant existence
'I forgot my ticket!'....'Man you fuckin dip shit, where is it?'
Fact is it was on a mision...in the kitchen the $20 cost saved my skin
My friends made their decision….it was too late to return for life
I was dropped off that night at the nearest bus stop in sight
It loosened deaths sickled knife…I returned home regretting my loss
It was a replayed thought…questions rebounding in my head but not caught
An unforseen lesson taught…destinies unforseen hand swapped my place
And stole another face to fill it's archive of fateful grace
The buses engine raced….and mirrored my mental state of being
A clouded black sky viewed from my seating…ominous cries for friends bleeding

(months later)de ja vu appeared and i boarded a bus to visit my fated homies again...
i shuddered to life As the greyhound sprinted towards the bend……….

Meanwhile…

If only…we had turned around and missed ten minutes of the rap show
But no…our selfishness overcame humanity and he had to go
Dam it was so low!…it took us hours to que and get in the grounds
Remorse rose and pronounced your name and screamed over the sounds
Then they announced…the sound system was broken and to refund our cash
So much for that…the three of us got the receipt for deaths empty hand
Reunited with our ride back…ignition to our journey home
A twisted key had evil seeds sown…not long till they were fully grown
We couldn’t have known…as blunts passed our lips on the snaking road
Fate placed a glittering sharp stone…BANG!…the right tyres hissed and blown!
Struggling for control…the shadow man clenched the wheel and turned
Aimed at the rock wall stern……and painted afterlifes canvas with a crash and burn
Our souls spurned…..dashed by crunching metal and engulfed by flames
Turns out though the wall owned our names…If Only's are mere expressions that do little to change
So as we look at our companion firmly embedded in lifes game
U were destined to leave that ticket for life far away
Your shed tears water our flowered graves but fear not we willl meet again one day
Don't take life for granted OK….your end may be just around the corner!!!!!!!


and there u have it....