walkin on a New York building rooftop at night.....
...rain dropping.....
.....looks up to the sky......
.....i been thru so much......no one feels my pain.........i'm so
alone..............
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!
yo...yo...
i'm alone...abandoned....born in this world forsaken by God
my spirit is plane...twisted insane..like the '11th' members of Jihad
focused on being a mod....is the excitement of my life...
FUCK MY WIFE!!...hit that kick that bitch for pullin a knife
now she gone....vanished...screamin 'andelay!'..well fuck spanish
took my seeds.....but being addicted to weed helps me manage
so i thought.i assumed,evicted from my house,nowrent out a room
readin dyslexic in my 'mood' swing made me realize my 'doom'
been hated and discriminated......possessed and oppressed
suicidal thoughts & heroin shots..still was in pain & depressed
stress?!...ha ha...these muthaphuckas don't even know the word
only eyes from the Lord..saw me seekinspirits from a Quioja board
cursed wit a lonely spirit,Jesus ain't hearin it....my prayers that is..
if he did...then why'd my kids,get tookin like the way that they did
flipped the coin on my inner child..he fell deep in the abyss
on coke...stay broke,wit cottonmouth i'm forced to drinkin my piss
is this a diss on myself?...or is this the truth that i'm feedin?...
truth is i'm sweatin from ventin this anger thats heatin!..
walks towards the ledge and stands on it......looks down..
Yes!...adrenanline rush from gazing into the faces of death
no fear in my heart...my world fell apart..and mixed it wit meth
i'm wastin my breath...wastin away..even told i'ma waste of space
i just wanna fly...like Lenny Kravitz...and forget of this place
what am i doing?!.....can't jump....cuz my kids still got a father
gotta rethink....gotta retract...gotta man up and not even bother
i'm not takin this plunge..takin this 'Fall'..but turnin over a leaf
start from the beginnin....repay my lendings...put an end to beef..
THUD!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
......bitch owed me 50 dollars.....LONELY SPIRITed crazy nigga.....
out here rappin in the rain and shit........now he a dead muthafuck
ghost
