this is my first time ever on topical. dont be too hard on me if it sucks. just say it sucks. i wrote it in first person for a lot of it. some references are closely related to reasons why eternal life are good and bad....u figure it out. .....

if i could just have it. .

immortal life, extendin time & never leavin friends behind
lendin souls a gentle mind & thinkin of ways to spend the time
but maybe the end is fine, to welcome the stairway to heaven. .
but if god was so good would he let kids die at age eleven?
everythings black & white to me death & life if i die tonight. .
would it be worth it to instead have everlasting life?
lifes dedication to findin the fountain of youth spoutin at you &
i think about livin forever long n hard, still dont amount to a clue
fuck it, take a drink from the fountain of youth & regret later. .
turned gods traitor & with one gulp blew deaths detonator
no spectators cuz no one else matters now bein here 4ever. .
wit every endeavor realizin theres no longer now or never
cuz i just killed father time & will forever stay in my prime
fuck it, think for urself. . does it matter what i say in this rhyme?

the after effects. .

bored of my life and nutin 2 do cuz im even here fuckin wit you. .
now wishin id entered the gates and instead centered my hate
. . on eternally time being spent on a wait//
stuck forever wishing to meet all those friends and family that have come and gone. . finally realizing most of the choices i had done were wrong. .//
but its too late now shoulda spent more time reflecting & less on pushing away death & fear of rejection. .//