You may feel you are just spouting bullshit and crap in this piece, but I felt I was reading a rage filled plea to be heard, not just listened to, but really heard, perhaps understood. I say perhaps because I think a part of you likes to keep those dark resources of your mind to yourself, to remain a mystery. Maybe thats where you feel the safest, but at the same time, the most unsure.
I felt your anger in this piece, but at times a softness broke through, like your will was weakened just for a second, your defences down, and what you truly seek shined through - to be familiar to someone. To be loved. To be heard. TO fit in. To be able to just be.
I could be way off here, yes. However even though you have posted a detailed explanation on the piece, I think there are times where even the author doesnt really see the true purpose of what they have written.
Sometimes in life it takes an outside interpretation, removed from ourselves, to get proper perspective and make things clear. One mans question, is another mans answer...
That is the power of the subconsious mind.

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