I agree with profiit... I feel that you are still suffering inside yourself for this so only tapped into that well of emotion at a safe distance. A self defence mechanism maybe, if you delve any deeper you might just go crazy..break down.

On a personal note, dont let your father rule your life any longer, and while you still hate him, he does. Lay it to rest inside yourself and take revenge by knowing you have become a better man than he.

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