Redemption is sweet jus another topic of defeat/
Look in my pockets checkin if my ends meet/
Knowin its hard in the streets/
Whether I end up back on my feet or under six feet deep/
If Trials and Tribulations decide my fate/
Then what is left in this world for me to anticipate/
Death is rising at a growin rate/
I been gone for a while without a smile now its my style thats on debate/
It's like I died came back again repeated reincarnation/
Like I'm Lazarus or Macchiaveli brought back to civilization/
Speakin words and hyms from our forefathers of the past/
Rhymes like spells from the tomb that I have jus cast/
Criticism and hatred spread across the board as if it was popularity/
It'll take my brain to reach my spinal cord to give my body the polarity/
Pressin and stressin myself to react to something stable/
But a stable home as a adolescent was something my parents were unable/
To provide ask question like God Why I must stay alive to serve you on this Earth and expect me to thrive/
With nothing stop it I'm not frontin if life is a game of baseball then why am I jus bunting/
Comin up short in everything I achieve, Follow the ten commandments and never stop to believe/
That I'll finish second I stop and lose my breath'n knowin I could lose my life with any weapon/
Am I second string on the depth chart of life/
I stand patiently lookin at my razor sharp knife/
What I should I do?/
I hear inside your body your blood remains blue/
Oxygen released your blood cells redden/
Your veins pour the blood your body slowly deadens/
Contimplatin suicide at every corner you take/
Spark my cigarette I'm hooked on my every mistake/
Carbon monoxide fills my lungs as I'm breathin wonderin why I'm livin then/
As my lungs try to dilute the tar and every carcinogen/
Then I turn to my trusty friend the bottle/
And after a few every girl fat or ugly turns out to be a model/
My attention deficits disorder/
Cause I jus fucked up my drivin skills for three dollars and a quarter/
Off the Draft with my alcohol right beside me/
I wonder what fate God expects to decide me/
With nobody near me or to take me home and drive me/
The end of my life is nearin with my guardian angel beside me/
My mistakes and faults all rolled into one/
Its the poisons of the devil that suicide me nevermind a gun/
I have polluted my body no chance to recycle and save/
Cause R.I.P is all I see below Brian Lemay on my grave/
But dont cry for me friends and family I did this to myself/
Cause my meaning in life was just to sacrifice myself/
So you know you see me layin there lyin dead on the floor/
Pourin moet on my casket knowin jus yesterday I was who you saw/
Sayin Goodbyes sittin there with tears in your eyes/
But I'm still here on Earth think of me in the skies/
I'm lookin down on you but dont worry I did this intentional/
But dont do what I did live up to your potential/
Now I lay me down to sleep forever the lord my soul to keep/
And if they cry before I wake jus make sure they dont make my mistake/
Drugs, Liquor Smoking all forbidden/
Life happiness and Love is what the lord has given/
So take your rewards smile and be silent/
Love your family never choose to be violent/
These are life's lessons should you choose to learn/
My soul's condemned in hells fire I shall burn/
So watch out for temptation every corner you stroll/
Cause life is a bridge and theres always a toll/
Pay it forward never hold it back/
Cause Death isnt suspected its something that reacts/
So Rest in Peace I shall in due time/
And learn from each and every line/
Live your life to its fullest and you shall know/
That you'll appreciate every rain drop and every wind that blows/
Earth was created to keep in order/
From the land the trees to the mass of water/
But my decisions affected and cost me my soul/
Now I'm in the devil's hands I jus gave him control/