man i sort of get sick the way i act/
i get so angry and pissed off for no reason and i slam myself as if i got sacked on the dirt/
i got this shiity thing called tourettes/
sometimes i feel like riskin my life at russian roulette/
but i know ill lose cause that is what i have been going/
so much shit i see is just posing/
sometimes i feel so boring and get stressed and dont know what to do/
my mind goes crazy and wild like in a zoo/
people dont know how i feel/
this shit i say aint fake it real/
i get all heated up and feel bad and start to get worse/
this shit is sucks so much i do things that make me force/
i force myself to do shit i dont wanna do but i need to so i can get better at what i want to be/
i wanna be that athlete what you see on tv/
i wanna practice and get better but i get lazy/
i need tyo yell at myself and elevate in rap and basketball/
so i need to get up from crawling/
and stop makin excuses for my stalling/

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It doesnt matter if you win as long as you give everything in your heart

- michael jordan

I am gonna be what i wanna be, but not just what i wanna be but what i am.

- 2hot2handle(myself)