(chours)(sung)endeavors is all i encounter, but i just keep on going
and when the push comes to shove and the lust turns to love
you'll never see my ass slowing
and when i'm surrounded and pounded by bullies that keep buryin me under a mountain
i kno this aint no joy ride
but through all of my shit i've gotten through all of it
and i was sure that kept my pride

u kno i've been through alot, smoked in the school parking lot
to keep people thinkin i'm happy when i'm definitely not
seen people walk out on me, from the day i was three
so in my imagination i'm famous and livin in the tv
its crazy cause i'm disfuntional, irrational, and alone
but in rap battles i;ve been known to hold onto my own
its like when i'm emceein i'm freein up all of this hate
this anger and hunger come out just to intimidate
when its 3 30 AM and its just me and a pen
i kno its insanity that God succesfully tried to create
people thinkin i'm perfect beacause i bring home staright a's
they never think that maybe i desperately crave an escape
try to consildate feeling of betrayal is useless
kinda like thinkin i'd be unnoticeable if i was substance abusless
i keep runnin from obstacles but they just keep coming
try to get ahead of this world but i fuckin keep stumbling
but one day when i make it and my limits the sky
just kno i never woulda made it if it wasnt for pride

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now my dad will call me up every once in a while
just to "check up on things", and ask if i'm still acting wild
the answers yes u fuckin bitch, and its because of u slick
sometimes i wish i could go back in my mom, and put the semen back in ur dick
u stupid prick, if im so sadistic, and i'm a fuckin spitting image of u
that u should tell u something genius, before u call urself man
grow some nuts under your penis
maybe i'm this way cause a female fucked with my mind
on to many times, now i'm lookin for ways to get the hurt out witht his rhyme
i need a release, drugs dont soothe the pain anymore
the gore of my wrist dont bring me closer to the lord
but i'm praying to god, to let me by this time
but no matter what, i kno, i gotta keep ahold of my pride

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