i read through this and do you kno how many old names i saw

JAY?
omg i thought for sure he's dissapeared and went into hididng?

DIME?
the memories
oh dgr the memories lmao

gege i love this (bet your surprised to hear that huh lol)

I loved to just scribble and let my mind snap-free
For Very few things in my life made me happy..
And when all the stress came on to entrap me..

i love your unique way with intros gege you make it so we kno right away wether or not we are gonna be happy sad disturbed or threatened----

The pen on the paper was what let the strap free.
Caught in a thought, completely distraught-were,
the only things keeping my head above water..

the emotional build up is right here for me its like i can feel that your on the verge of destruction and when it leads to your larger stanza you can tell that its only gonna pull the reader ( me ) in deeper to the point i wont be able to leave this thread without 30 minutes of typing a heartfelt reply

But rough waves, they brought-blur, I let that drown my sight
For its been a while since I sat down to write.............................

setting up once again to kno whats coming is very suspensful


Last Night.....I cried.

gege that right there makes me want to cry because knowing you the reader (even tho not in the real) makes me sad to kno that tears were brought to your eyes


For everything we were, everything we never can be,
Every time you love me, every time you can't stand me.
For everything I need, everything you deny to me,
Every time I listened, every time you lied to me.

this reminded me of MARIAH CaREY
in her music videos ( soulful ones) when shes singign a part that she wants you to feel she says it in a certain tone THOSE lines made me feel that tone that saddened feeling

For everything we shout, everything we never say,
everything we feel, everything we don’t display.

not displayin? the hidden stuff in a relationship i found is the harderst to deal with and for you not to elaborate on it made it stand out even more

For everything I treasure,
the person i feel is what you treasured most

everything you take for granted,
all the sweet nothings, never mentioned, never chanted.
For every time I don't want to, every time I do anyway,
every time I reach out, every time you push my hand away.
For every time I was faithful, every time you still suspected.
Every time I cried, left alone, left neglected.

reminded me of *little doggy* you have a hard time with this gege i can see that
For every time I had a comeback, every time you raised your hand,
Every time that I explained, and you couldn’t understand.
For every time I waited up, and every time you never came,
Every time I was the victim, but every time I was to blame.

gege this rhetorical statement is wonderful i HAVE always felt that in an arguement with s speacil someone ( who i left long ago) that i was being hurt the most yet it was always my fault and i couldnt belive that to be true

For every time I was hopeful, every time you proved me wrong,
Every time I sang the words, of another sad song.

when i think of this peice i think of all sorts of sad songs as im reading my way through it alot of boys 2 men comes to my mind and the song have you ever by brandy this peice really grabs a person gege

For every time I was scared, every time you left me crying.
Every time I smiled, but inside I was dying.
For every time you crossed the line, and every time I took you back.

and you never should have unforntutly our hearts make that choice for us
All the instances of love that need the qualities we lack.
Every insult struck a nerve, every grin and bitter word,
Every thing that I’ve put up with, everything I don’t deserve.

you didnt deserve it gege and no one ever does but it does build us up to face much harder things
I realize now, though it took a lot of trying..
I’m ready to move on..I’m ready to stop crying.

and im glad that you are gege
this peice was remarqable

^^^^^ hmmmm im in awe once again of rapbattles and perhaps the entire worlds most beautiful poet

hazy