think about that ^^ He loved the Lord because he treated him well, no other person could match that right? Well then God hurt him and he was upset and "cursed his name"(or that's what was expected but he was stronger than that). But in the end he still loved God.
That's basically it. I feel an attraction, well more than that it's like a responsibility to my heart to at least try to make wrong what I did to this person because I love them. I can't have this person back, and I probably did the most shallow thing you could do to try and win this person's effections back, and it hurt me and gave them what they wanted. I got hurt several times over, on different levels, but the most powerful was probably by them... I think I was weaker, I couldn't take my pain and say that I still loved them because of pride issues, I still won't say it, even when they do. But I was proud of this peice. Whether or not it makes sense to any of you, or ever truely does to me I liked it. I thank you all for the time you took to read it and reply, it means a lot... wasup Joe? Peace