Damn, great poem. I know what you are going through because your b/f was just like mine. I loved him so, but what he did to me made me hate him also. The mind never seems to know what to do. I hope you figured out what to do. In a way I never did, but at least I broke away from him. It hurt me a lot, but I figured out that in the end, he wasnt worth it. The pain wasnt worth it, even though I loved him to death.