ok well...sorry it's been a while but we've been movin into our house and we just got the net workin so YAY for jamie...well...ok...ur confessions didnt bother me at all...ok...yea..the one about how at first u saw me as a firend...and then u kinda liked me...yea...that's wut happened wit me...ok...2...if u woulda asked me to fuk at the teen center i prolly woulda said no but would have made out wit u and let u feel me up and shit and 3 if u woulda asked me to fuk at the terminal i woulda...

ok...so things here r ok..most of my friends r dudes wit gf's and or seniors...so yea...umm..they've invited me out drinkin and shit but i havent gone yet...umm..there's one of em...his name is ryn and he kinda reminds me of u. like the way he acts and shit..like we can talk about anything *(he's gotta gf)* anyways...so we were talkin in class and he was like do u like me?? and i was like huh?? and he was like well.let me tell u...if i didnt have a gurl u'd be the first one id go after...and i was like ok..well..yea i like u but since u got a gurl im not gonna try and get wit u or shit like that...so we're just gonna be kool wit each other...and so like we're friends and shit and like i can talk to him about pretty much anything...it's kool..so anyways...our whole relationship is pretty much us hitten on eachother and jokin around about sex..it's weird...anyways...so like i showed him my scar the other day *(the "cruz" one...)* and i was like well wut do u think about it?? and he was like....well....lets just say if i didnt have a gurl i would wanna see that scar nice and close and i was like well wut dose that mean?? and he was like wutever u want it to mean...so yea...and today we were talkin about fukin and shit *(not eachother....just in general)* so yea...the dude i gotta crush on has a gf...and they're like IN LOVE!! and shit so im like...well fuk...that sucks...

anyways...shit is ok..i get bitched at for everything even when i dont do shit...umm...im in ROTC...so that is somethin for me to do and..i drink...not alot but iv'e gotten drunk like 2 times since we've been here *(and by myself too )* yea...anyways...umm..ill be sure to send u pics of me when i can...*(if u wan em....)* and yea...well ive got some questions for u...

1.why did u wanna fuk me?? like...was it just cause u were horney or wut??
2.why didnt u ask me?? u shoulda!! damn...ummm
3. was i a REALLY bad kisser...i think i am cause like...i was like..hmm...at it was akward and then like i wanted to kiss u again but juan was out there so i was like nah...and then i wanted to make out wit u before i left but i couldnt and o never even got a hug! i was like..damnit!! yea anyways...so yea..umm..i gotta go cause im gettin bitched at...remmeber to send me some pics....miss u to