Oh dude... I am actually sincerly sorry for that. I do apologize. I really don't intend to offend people so much as I don't realize how offensive the stuff I say might be to people.

As for an explanation... well.. it's all interpretive. But my own interpretation wasn't ment to hurt anyone. It also was not ment to be used in the context of those two lines alone. But rather, one should include the five lines above it when reading.

I fall in the warmth of the goddess
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I believe in a divine being, and I believe such a divine being is female. I don't expect anyone else to think this of course. But it comforts me. I never had a mother, an invisible gust of wind is about all I got.
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And yet I make my prayers to God
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It's habitual. I was told by everyone that either God exists, or God does not exist. I was always also told that God is a guy. Not a gal. So when I lay in bed I feel bad and I have no one to talk to and talking to myself becomes tiresome... I say "Hey, God. What's up?" Not even intentionally. It just comes out in my mind.
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I believe in Yaweh, but Yaweh don't believe in me
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I do believe in God. I also used to have a crack idea about the Bible. I never really ever finished it, but it was sort of a project in studying the bible. I didn't get really far, but I read a lot of the old testament. The old testament, God says his name is Yaweh. But that is the Judaic belief, not the Christian belief. What can I say? I write down the ten commandments and do my best to follow them, but I never read far enough to reach the book of Mathews. I mean, I read it, I just have yet to study it.
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Maybe he's Jehovah and he's just trying to be decieving me
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Or Jehovah. His name is either Yaweh, or Jehova. That is the problem with translations. I mean, the scribes were very very meticulous when translating it, but things do get confused.
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Could Satan possibly be bringing relief to me
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And just like I adhere to the Judaic beliefs of God first, so I do the same with Satan. I read in a few places that Satan isn't a person. Lucifer is, Beelzebub is, but Satan is not. Satan is an obstacle. Obstacles are not good. When I wrote this line I was thinking about things that impede my progression through life, and how much they bring me relief. Ciggarrettes... for example.
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So I said hello to god, followed by "YOU FRAUD!"
How is your Jesus Christ hanging?
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The bottom line... throughout all these lines... is that I don't feel the love. I mean, the idea of a motherly goddess up there watching over us is a heart warming idea... but I don't feel the love. And the Judaic God... well as one wise woman put it... "The Old Testemant, God is angry. New Testament, God loves us all." *shrugs*. She wasn't that far off either. I mean, God in the old testament did a lot of smiting. And I don't feel love in such a Yaweh. Nor when his name is translated into Jehova. And Satan... nope. I feel no love in Satan. And of course, the thing is that goddess, god, yaweh, jehova... it's the same person.

Jesus... well... Ok. In the line where I asked how he was hanging, I ment to have some humor in that. Jesus was crucified after all. When you get crucified... let us face it... there aint much to do but hang around...

But there was also a seriousness to that line too. When Jesus Christ was "hanging around", how was he? He wasn't in the best of moods. In fact... I distincly remember reading that he was crying out loud as he hung on the cross... "Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?"

Which is to say... "My god, my god, why have you forsaken me?"

I guess what I was really trying to get across was sometimes I feel like saying "Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?".

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Originally posted by Bruklor Nec is just dumb

I'm taking that as a compliment.