This reminds me of a peice I wrote a while back while in extreme pain over something. I too wanted revenge. Oddly enough I found my relief in Church. I guess I'm telling you that because I laid in my floor asking those same questions you opened up with... my peice had those look at me, I'm pathetic lines in it as well. May jus be wishful thinking, an I wish I could remember what it was I was told, but really, it was original and a good peice. Straying away from the norm always keeps me hooked, nice drop, peace