Responded to; BrokenWings, DaGyrlRemarqabL, and Calisto!

((I wrote this awhile ago.. it's like.. my life summed up into a poem. Its long, I know... but yeah..))

Beated, Hated, Discriminated
Three words that sum up my life, I'm irritated
People don't know shit about me, but yet they judge
They bitch and wonder why I've got no fucking trust,
Sit back, relax, and listen to this tragic story,
I'm sorry if you can't handle the story when it gets gory,
But this is my life, the way it goes, and wasnt easy,
When I was real young, everyone used to tease me,
The first guy I trusted fucked me over and beat me,
When I was just seven he scarred my little mind forever,
No ones done anything worse to me since then, never,
He violated me, entered me, and hurt me with physical pain,
I dont know why he did this, raping a little girl, theres nothing there to gain,
That little bitch fucked me up so bad, now I'll never again be the same,
At Nine years old my favorite person in this world died,
I can't remember any other time I've sat and fucking cried,
I tried to crawl into his casket with him, go to heaven with his soul,
They told me I couldn't do it, and now I'll never again be whole,
I remember shaking and crying...screaming violently beyond control,
When I finally stopped, I had to make my mind up what kind of person to be,
Was I gunna be one that respected all man kind and treated everyone humanely?
Oh hell no, People hurt me and I was sick of getting hurt,
I was gunna treat them like they treated me, they were about to feel like dirt,
So up until I was 13 I never let a guy get to me, and never cared,
I'd been hurt too many times, I'll admit it.. for once I was scared,
I let one guy into my heart, and he promised me he'd never fuck me over,
But he lied, I was wrong to trust him, he ended up to be a cheater,
He fucked two girls while he was with me, It was because I didnt give him what he needed,
My self esteem, my self worth.. every ounce of dignity was depleated,
Then more than a year later, someone penetrated my heart with his eyes,
I fucked up when I dated him, I shoulda known he was the devil in disguise,
He did drugs, he was a thug, but he made me feel like a queen,
For months the two of us were together, our love was serene,
But I didnt know he was cheating on me with more girls than I can count on two hands,
Everyone told me just to get over him, he wasnt worth it, but still no one understands,
I felt like it was my fault, I let myself fall in love twice only to get fucked over twice,
The one thing I've learned now for sure, is to never let a guy into your life, it will be your demise,
Guys always lie, and girls eye's cant realize these lies, but all we've gotta do is look at the signs,
Trust me, take a little time.. it'll end up worthwhile, so a guy doesn't leave your life in the shits this time.
Dont ever wonder why I'm as untrusting and unloving as I am today,
You fucked me up, fucked me over, that's why I am this way.