LMAO ... I don't know if this is wat U meant in this piece ... But to me it seemed that U were takin' the perspective of a rollercoaster ... cuz of lines like this ...

I need to be en guard more…don’t push me over the edge

I don’t plan it to embark…but dreams rocket sky high

Passers by complain about the noise…glares leave confidence destroyed

But like aspirations I cant touch the prize…so close and yet distant

Nah mean ... When I read those lines ... That's wat comes to my mind ... The perspective of a rollercoaster ... But I dunno ... Correct me if Im wrong ... Peace