Very very personal piece, so I dont feel I can give critique.. but Id like to tell you something...

When I was a teenager, I hated my mum.. I could go into a long winded story about why, but the only detail poignant to this is that one day I came home and discovered her unconsious.. she had over dosed on pain killers. So, I can understand some of the emotions you are experiencing.

When I became a mother myself 10 years ago, it gave me new insight into who my mum was. What made her do the things she did. One of the greatest gifts having children gave me, was understanding for my mum. Now, Im not saying go and have children in order to understand your own mum lol But, I want to tell you, that as children we forget our parents are anything but parents. They are their own people to, with their own issues and fears, fears you cant even begin to understand until you do indeed have children of your own. I know I resigned myself on the morning my daughter was born.. that never again my entire life, could I be completely worry free.

Most importantly, I want you to know, and I speak from experience... that no matter what your mum says or does, or how she behaves... she loves you. Trust me in that.

I wish you all the best through this, be strong.. it does get better. My mum and I are now very close, and I appreciate that every day.

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