I decided to do The Shadow Behind Me
I’ve grown from a boy to a man with many bumps along the road
Never knew a humans heart could become so kold
Bold with eyes froze I look at life with tainted vision
And think to myself “this world has got to be fiction”
I’m a multimillionaire I made a life for myself
Millions of dollars, vacation spots, and a bill of perfect health
But I can’t just be happy my life fallin to pieces
My wife holds me and consoles me as I tell her the reason
“Baby I’ve tried to hold this secret but it’s welled up inside
I wanted to take this to my grave…This secret shame I’ve tried to hide
Because I try to blindly mask myself from the shadow behind me
A dark secret in my past that just constantly finds me
The first time I was a boy right before my baptism
A few times in between and again at catechism
I felt as if I were in prison as stole my innocence
And every time that he was finished I lay silent and grimacing
He took every good and pure thing of my childhood away
Which is why I can’t escape the shadow behind me to this day
And if you think that was something then the part that’s really bad
Is the fact that Father Thomas was my real dad