Schizophrenia

....I'm paranoid, destroyed, an annoyed
By the stigmas an obstacles my brain deploys
Don't know who I am from one day to next
Constantly perplexed wondering if I'm hexed
....My identity is leavin' me steadily
Doctors claim its based in my pedigree
Amongst my immediate family, I'm crazy one
The family embarassment quickly shunned
Disliked by my family and also myself
Which only worsens my mental health
On edge of insanity trying not to jump
Cuz if I do I'll hit rock bottom with a thump
For all to hear, breathin' but not livin'
The faint hope of a cure keeps me drivin'
Wishin' someday I'd be jus one person
At same time hopin' condition doesn't worsen
Scared every night layin' down being me
Not knowin' tomorrow who I'll wake to be
....Gotta face this all alone an confined
To one room, this jumpsuit now defines
Who I've become, a resident of institution
For criminally insane, yearnin' for retribution
....No visits.......or any recreation
Jus 24 hours daily of incarceration
For a murder I don't even remember
Distraught when shown photos of moms dismembered
They say I did it, my mind's eye can't see
I'm not a murderer but the killer resides within' me

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