FADE AWAY

Watching myself waste away like a diet weight scheme
my life's already over and i'm not even eighteen
I may dream of a better life when reality slips my mind
but I always return to a life....that isn't even mine
it hits like a ton of bricks, the weight of life, it won't stop budding
I wish it could crush my body...my soul until there was nothing
I pray it "crush and keep crushing" I used to beg it to cease
but life's beyond my repair to far gone, i want release
I'm steeped in the riches of thought but i'm not proud of my wealth
Wish i could unzip my soul and crawl out of myself
praying to miscarriage these feelings, my girls pregnant it's crazy
what's worse if i'm not happy all the time, my friends hate me
and my future is still hazy, I may not graduate from high school
they expect me to flo all the time, i'm drowning in this life pool
but they ignore the screaming, see me reaching for the cement
get myself on steady ground, but when i drown...they just start leaving
they've never heard my real voice, when i use it they think i'm joking
I'm losing my identity....WHERE'S GOD!!!??? Must be getting the roping
my whole life has been to color the world, always act gay
I can't show them my strain, my pain.....my dismay
I wish i could fade away...just...become a shade of gray
my whole life has spilled through a pencil....
.....but even that can fade away
I thought i rubbed them the right way, but when i'm gone they won't taper
and my effect will rub off them, the way my words rub off paper

don't worry I drop on time Peace(like rakim and Eric B)

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