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yo..
18 years old..his senior year in high school, jus a plain ol snob guy..
his football team lost in the state playoffs..n' last weekend his mom died
drivin n on the cell..she was assurin him she loved him more than she let on
he was eager to get off..phone went static she collided with a truck head on
apart from gettin bullied for losin..a school all about football town jus reads up
all in the paper how he thru the INT. that lost the game..now he gets beat up
schools almost out..n' his grades are droppin, he visits where his mother lies
he mourns enough..but some months ago his girl ditched him for another guy
they had been datin for two years he was in love, beleived they were destined
one day he went to her house to surprise her...found her atop his best friend
the were messin around..but he died inside all these things come at a bad time
his father was havin trouble copin too..he left n said he'd be back..his dad lied
when you realize life's a bitch..it has puppies, his motto, he lets out a dead sigh.
he seems cold n lifeless..heart n pieces..with his 9 to 5..scrapin enuff to get by
just barely tho, scarce food n no heat, heart feels like its bein poked wit a thorn
jumped after work one night then finds out his home's been broke in n stormed
just him an his sister now..there both depressed..home has seperate segments
she breaks the bad news..her boyfriend has dumped her..and left her pregnant
she can't afford n abortion..so somehow or another they gota make ends meet
its tuff..he comes home one day n only thing protrudin from a room r dead feet.
he musters courage n walks to unveil the mystery..so scared he goes in froze
white powder smeared..a empty bag..sister gone..life took by a crack overdose
he falls in the corner n cries in a ball..sobbing and moaning..been hurt to much
how could a girl so innocent n precious to him leave..now she hurts to touch..
it sends him a cold chill to his body..everyone he holds dear has betrayed him..
this pain he feels seems like its chokin him..twistin his insides..tryin to slay him
no metaphor could safice for the pain felt..tore him to shreds..his soul is gone
can't make it in this harsh world..its harder than the wall that his shoulders on
curled in the corner..he screams until he cant' breathe..tears go down his cheek
he hears voices from peers..'I'm glad he's dead!..wonder who found this geek'
anger builds up..he rages, seems like it combats his sorrow..his hearts racin
oceans of despair n desiscions..but none bigger than the one his brains facin
he knows theres a way out..it could releive his tension n dispense emotions cuz
but this conclusion is horrifyin to him..a sleep that he won't get awoken from..
..three days later there is a late breakin annoucement on the news, gota b ugly
they found a girl dead..and a boy hung in his garage an his body was bloodied
but below the young boy there was 2 paintings..in a minute we will review them
one was sorry..wrote beautifully in blood..to those who knew him
other was a boy entwined..to symbolize how slowly darkness consumed him..
a boy who desperatly tried to run from this fate..
but in the end..the tragedy was he could not escape..
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