He haunts me no matter how i try it's in vain...

My brainframe implodes on itself from the strain
Of thoughts so insane that I'd previously attained
My fearful curiousity makes me open my eyes
My stomach acid rises up like tides, burning the sides
Of my throat, I'm hoping i don't pass out from the choking
Because the karma makes my sleep beyond death provoking
The natural concoction of nitrogen and oxy-
Generates a new me like something detoxed me
Suddenly all is clear, all my thoughts spring into action
I run into the back of the yard, where the roots are packed in
Fuck the shovel i claw through all the dirt and the gravel
Cursing out my mind for all the deepness in which i dabbled
Nails break as i penetrate the earth til i hit the solid mass
At my target location, i start to reminisce the past

Rewinding like Nas the bullet flies out of the man's gut
Like my fingertips are magnetised, pull off the handcuffs
He starts cuss sounding like his ass is speaking in tongues

I snap out of my dream to gather air in my lungs...

My visionary high angle, aligns with a torn sack
Viewing me back is an eye, in the shade of Scorn Black
His soul-less body hates me, but lately it don't phase me
Even though murder would be the case that they gave me
I'm in relative safety, having slain the beast
Now that he's ceased, I can try remain in peace

However...

Claiming this peace wasn't solved by attaining a piece
Even after death this nigga knows the paining he leaves
Anger fills my mind so i reach down and cover his mug
And re-bury my father in this hole that i dug