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As I wander on this rock I try and find my place,
I look down and turn around and look her in the face.
She says, 'Baby, you need to do this for yourself,
It doesn't involve me, the kids, money or wealth'
She's right, this jump is what I need to succeed,
But I'm afraid of the mangled mess I may be,
...........When I finally jump, all I can do is bleed
But then at the same time, I need this thrill in life,
It's like a General in order to advance he needs stripes.
I wipe off the sweat that clings to my face and body,
Trying to wipe of water but put on dirt that's cloddy.
'Are you ready yet sir?" I'm not sure, when do I go?
'Who knows sir, I've been waiting for years for you to go'.
Why do you stay here then? If it takes up your time?
Cuz I want to see when you jump, gotta happen sometime.

So I looked over the mountain, and saw the jump to make,
If I didn't take the leap then when I do it could be too late.
I wish there was fate, so I didn't have to decide within me,
Whether I want to take risks, no more strugglin for victory.
.....The sky is clear and blue, no chance of rain or escaping,
......Everyone is sighing around me at how long I am taking.
I'm shaking with fear and distrust, how do I know I am right?
I might just fall off and hit the ground, oh such an ugly sight.
To imagine that makes me queezy, but then I visualize victory,
Everyone surround my cheering my name but then I'm too early.
.......I then think of living but failing, how everyone is so angry,
Not this handsome guy, but this ugly person whos face is bloddy.
Finally, I just look to the left and right, and realize my fate is me,
Time to decide who I am......and what I think that I want to be.

I strap up with my cords, and know that these will protect my safety,
I look deep inside to see what God gave and what has made me.
I take a running start......but I cannot take that final step,
I make a petty excuse like I needed to something I might forget.
Another try.....but yet again I fail in fear but I cannot let them know,
So I show a straight face, and said I had to kiss her before I go.
So I kissed her, no more excuses and I think now I have to jump,
There is nothing around me, except a small stump.
My feet are moving and I decide I need to so I just close my eyes,
While I am running I keep thinking the same thought, "Why?!"
Why am I doing this? The terror grips me and slows me down a tad,
But I tell myself I will be fine and that it will not be that bad.
I feel my legs push off the ground as I soar into the air,
It felt like for 10 minutes all I did was hang there.
Then I knocked on the door, and now there is so much I can do,
Who knew that if I just kept at it I could do something new.
I started to fall into the room, and with that I kissed my cross,
I then opened the door and said to him, ' Hello Boss'..............

'Why hello there Mr. James, you want your check for the day?'

"Actually sir there is something else, you see there's another on the way."
And I was wondering if you had any positions that I could apply"
I finally say it, wondering if he will let me have joy or leave me to cry.

'Well now that you mention it, I've wondered if you wanted a promotion,
But you always seemed to like your job and you always seemed devoted.
But I have an opening as an Executive position in sales and retail,
Ask my secretary and she will be sure to give you the details.'

I can't believe it, I want to jump up and down but I shake his hand and leave,
Amazing how the hardest thing that had me struggling for victory, was me.