"forever changed - a son's demise"
smiles and fun, a child in slums, wild and young
a father looking after his last child and son
but with these books i read, he shook his head
took instead, said, i should be a crook instead
theres no time to learn when chased by a jake or a fed
still shaking his head, says,"son they takin' our bread
so he turned to the streets, hustlin', burnin' his heat
and i sat back and watched as a kid, still learnin to speak
he turned my mother to crack, soon burnin' a sack
i tuned it out, but soon i doubt will ever be able to chat
now he stay on the run, always palmin' a gun
headed for the darkside of the hood, all for his son
and the rock would soon crack him, siruns flashin'
lying and laughin', but soon becomes crying and askin'
when will i see my son? or my wife and daughter
this is my demise, lost love of my only father
hated my self, but really just screaming for help
couldn't deal the cards from the deck i was delt
abandoned and left i felt, building up this aggression
fathers lessons questioned, lookin' for hell, forgott heaven
soul has lost luster, hatered building, lost mother
i turned my back on her, life paused to suffer
sister never talked, now all she does is scream
lust of schemes,showed the streets, ajusted my means
this life im sickened to pick it, this and prison visits
turn visions to critics, dreams lost, now im crippin to git it
I'm the son of Guy, happy doesnt last, and funs a lie
the victim of a system that loves to see a sons demise
dark clouds hover over me, will this weather sustane
felt severed and maimed, lost child, forever changed
~Babz~