I paddle the canoe down the river of life...
...The side to the left...dark...the right so full of light...
Where to board..? Where do I dock my veselled soul..?
...One half is a sandy beach...the other an infested hole...
I reach rocky rapids...steep decent, a taunting pace...
...I now find myself in a dash on a track I never wanted to race...
I turn my head back, to try and seek some kinda rescue...
...All's I hear is a voice..."It's your fault everyone has left you..."
All of a sudden the dark side of the shore comes nearer...
...I look down...beer and weed on the left...it comes clearer...
On the right side of the boat's floor a...it's a picture...
...My family...my girlfriend...it looks so bright compared to the liquor...
I shake my head, and crack a brew...I take a sip of it...
...The dark side of the shore comes zooming...I'm within an inch of it...
As I drink the beer and light a joint...I hear the voice once again...
..."Is it worth to piss your life away, in turn losing Jenn..?"
I stop and look...I'm riding in the black sand of the darkness...
...I look to the light shore...many memories that could never depart us...
I look down to the beer and weed...think of Jenn and my family...
...I've stopped on the black sand...the very sand that damaged me...
I tried to push off into the river but the boat was weighed down...
...I threw the beer and weed off and they shattered on banked ground...
With every amount of strength, I pushed the boat further...
...The very motive was if Jenn found out, how much it would hurt her...
The boat hit the waves, and I floated down and safely away...
...It was my own fault that everybody hated me today....
I reach the other shore for a new start, a new life in the bliss...
...I then realized how much I had really actually come to miss...
Happiness was in me...I was in the light to get my memories back...
...From time to time I looked to darkness........and how I wished to go back...
It's long...but oh well.
If you don't understand it, it represents one's struggle with drugs and alcohol over family and love.